It’s the 4th of November and I lay in my bed
Reflecting on what lies ahead
Knowing there’s a lot to be said
So I pen down my thoughts instead
On this day, I strengthen my resolve
Discarding all feelings of love
Embarking on this journey with trust
God will answer when I beckon
Haven’ I heard a lot about this?
Didn’t I write and condemn with ease?
Wondering why a woman would decide
She’d rather have a fatherless child
But today I cast away my doubts
Though glints of sadness hover like a cloud
But that’s just a temporary clout
The thought of it makes me want to scream out loud
Would want to whine on how I regret
How my heart I sub-let
Knowing his seed bursts through me from within
Thumping away from beneath
Want to know why I let myself slip
Was I overcome by the sweetness of his lips?
In his eyes I saw a heart so lit
Feeling accomplished like a king
But they say his love is enough
What’s the use of that without trust?
They say I must be going insane
To think of having this my own way
So I shut my heart to the pain
I close my eyes to the gains
Love was never enough for me
It’s more complicated than it seems
So they ask…
Didn’t he show you off to the world?
Didn’t he get rid of the whores?
Didn’t he treat you like a queen?
Why are you always being so mean?
Oh ! Enough with the questions
Enough with the lessons
If I choose to hear a sermon
Will find that in church at my leisure
Maybe I’m fighting unknown battles
Thunderous noises in my head like seahawks fans in Seattle
Or maybe I’m just not one to settle
For a life so little
So I give back this gold ring
I used to love the way it gleamed
And oh I think of how glad it made him seem
To know he finally owned me as his queen….
Written by Emeh Achanga